Unhinged

I can't count the number of times I've felt this way, and frankly, it's getting pretty old.

When I'm happy, I want to be sad. It doesn't make sense.

This one is to all my friends. I don't know what's happening to me, and if I ever for anything get easily annoyed, or snap like a snapping turtle (Ugly things, aren't they? Though I still love them for their sheer ancientness) please take it as a defence mechanism and assume me to be an endangered species and forgive.

I really truly appreciate each and every one of you guys for being as unique and special as you are. And though I won't mention names, I'm going to try very hard to describe you guys, as you are to me (Warning, very senti post ahead).

Aaaannnnnddd..... In random order, here come the elite!!!

You, there, with the hair that matches mine (with respect to type according to those unfamiliar with the intricacies with our hair type), you're my special pep-tonic. I can always count on you to liven up anything no matter how unavoidably boring it is. I know that it's impossible to be so happy all the time, and yet you hide your inner turmoils very well, and hardly ever show us your deeper feelings. I love you for always being the knight in shining armour and here's declaring that I'll be here to support you not matter what.

And, lucky number two, with the dimples... Always crazy, funny, considerate, slightly hot tempered, you understand my every filmy dialogue and read the truth behind the tackiness. My sweet, understanding, loving darling (don't you raise your eyebrows, I'm slightly drunk and you know what happens to me at such times) chicky, don't you ever change for nobody. No matter who tells you what about your verbal speed or anything else. You're perfect as you are. I don't know what I'd do without those long venting sessions in the BEST buses, and the nuttiness that can raise me above my every bad mood.

And recent birthday girl!!! I'm still older than you!!! Muahahahaha!!! But seriously, quiet and supporting, people would do you the gravest injustice to assume you in the supporting roles. No way, you're either the main strength behind every spotlight role, or the troubleshooter, always ready to help anyone in trouble. I love your spontaneous comments, your grin when you flash your (ahem...shiny) pearly whites. Committed or not, you're definitely very important in my life. (Forgive the shortness of reference, but I just wrote you a nice long letter)

Crazytallfunchick!!! You're my link to the fantasy world!! With you I can talk about stuff that sounds like double dutch to everyone else. I'm so speechless with your brilliance (and besides, I'm being yelled at to get off the comp!! ) that I can't think of anything more to say. Love you man, stay as nuts as you are, and I guarantee that I'll always be as speechless.

And, now to the long distance relationships..

My best friends part one, two, and three (this is in random order, as and how I think of them, but to rate them would be doing them injustices). So the one in the south, you, my love are always ready to follow up and and every crazy and random comment I make (including Bertha the amorous cow) with a sensible comment (well sensible with respect to the conversation, not with respect to bystanders). And the one in the north, shrewd, smart, fun, witty, you'll always be the one who catches my every lie almost before I say it. You know me well enough to know when I'm hiding my tears, so well, in fact, that you know I'm thinking of hiding my tears before I even try to hide! You two have been in my life ever since the 7th, and have each in your own way helped me through various stages of my life. I don't know which God put us in the same class in the 7th, nor how we managed to bond so quickly and so well, but I thank Him for the miracles that you two are!! And the other one in the north, I don't know if you agree with me referring to you as one of my best friends, but I count you as one of my survival guides (which you already know, but what the hell). You know exactly how to be cute and flighty at the same time. I don't think I've ever met anyone who can make me laugh so many times in a minute, nor bring a smile to my face with a simple "chall naaa..." Love ya, dumbchick!!! (If you want more compliments, read the note I wrote for you..I'm tired of complimenting you!!)

This one's going to be a little harder. I don't know what to say about him. There was a time when I thought I'd given him too much credit, and that as usual, I'd been wrong. But these days, he's become an integral part of my life (I know most of the above mentioned are rolling their eyes, but I have to repeat this). I'm going to proceed to make the biggest fool of myself that I can. He's the only guy thus far who has been able to piss me off and then make me feel better all in under a minute. I don't know how far this is going to go, but I'm cherishing ever second, making memories of each one. He's got a crappy sense of humour, bad timing (always get calls when I can't call and then I have to call and waste my balance), and no matter how sad I am, he can cheer me up. Maybe I'm giving you too much importance again, but it all depends on my mood, and right now, it's good.

And returning to Santa for like the millionth time. I've already written a nice long post about you, though I know your big headboy ego wants to be included in every post... You have a hope!! Anyway, like I said before, practical, smart, witty, etc etc etc... I'm not doing you justice in this post man, I know. My personal version of the Godfather (hey, I knew I forgot something in the previous post!!) , amazing grasp of sarcasm ( I know I don't give you credit, but here it is, on a silver platter). Enough!! I'm being too partial!!

And junior chickie, you're like my sarcastic soul mate!!! I love to chat with you on the randomest things (you're one of those who are exceptions to the rule of chattier online than in person). And you're like the Mr Pickwick to my Snodgrass (I'm high on Dickens right now, and I'd like to compare myself to Snodgrass, and you're totally Pickwick, only less portly).

Not really so far away as the above mentioned few, but not as near as the others so I relegate you to this category. There was a time when I used to literally spend a major chunk of my life with you. Not in the flesh, but virtually. Maybe with life catching up, we don't talk as regularly nor as much, but I know you'll receive some neurotic messages from me many many times yet. Don't roll you eyes, accept my neuroticism (if that's not a word, I've made it up) as it is.

You guys are all so immensely important to me. Thank you guys so much for being there through my neurotic, paranoid, frustrating periods of life!!