Remember?

It's been a year and the physical scars have begun to fade.

But what about the emotional?

One look at the streets in the morning and you'd think that the pain still lingers, fresh, stabbing and as painful.

Second looks guarantee you'd think again.

Oh look at all those people dressed in white, just sitting and thinking about those who were at the wrong place at the wrong time or just plain unlucky. They cannot have any other possible motive to be reliving hurt and sorrow, can they??

But wait, are they even really those who've been touched by the insanity?? Or are they there to make a media statement?

What media? Why, those cameras all around at discreet distances, set to capture 'pure emotion'.

I don't deny that there are those who were touched, and who were hurt and who still hurt. But I don't believe that more than 10% of these crowds are made up of that population.

Besides, I wonder, what use is any of it?

What use is it to morcha on the roads or to set up murals on the walls?

Is it to raise awareness? Too late, people were aware of the drama a year ago. Very acutely, at that.

Is it to make sure that something is done? But what? Aren't our leaders working on it? Sure, you'd think you'd see AK47s in the hands of every traffic hawaldaar, but let's face it, in 3 years there will be weapons that make those look like lathis.

Sure, maybe you want to see naval warships permanently dotting the horizon, but let me tell you, they have other things to do. Which is not to say that the security of the city is not important, but if you want to have a safe and secure life in general, you'd better hope that they don't in fact cover your visible horizon.

What more can be done at the current date about the trial that seems to be looking to establish a long life record?

Short of all out war, nothing. There are those that argue that we need to be more strict and we should just shoot the son of a---

But then what? With living proof, we have issues with regards proving guilt. What a field day they'll have without it.

How much pressure more can we put on them if the 'parent countries' of the world insist on maintaining ridiculous neutrality and pumping more money in? There's only so much our truly sincere leaders can do and in all honesty, they're doing quite a decent job.

So it's been a year since, and we all remember the horror, surprise, shock and total suspension from reality that we felt.

And the wheels are moving.

But I rebel against wearing white to commemorate the occasion, and peace rallies and all the rest. I truly feel for the victims and those linked to them, this is something no person should have to go through. I still ace at the thought of all those people, and all the pointless gore.

I cried to see the Taj burning, and I cried on reading all the stories. I had a terribly heavy heart while scanning the scrolls on news channels, which had all those messages from frantic loved ones praying and hoping and sometimes grabbing straws. I was happy for those who lived.

But coming out of the curfew and the whole ordeal and feeling free again was a bittersweet deal and recalling that melange of feelings is still exhausting.

Please give hypocrisy a rest and actually feel.

The media can take care of itself.